Early on and Yesterday
I have to admit that my little lady is just getting cuter and cuter by the day. She keeps me busy, but also keeps my heart full. Lately, as you have read, it has been pretty challenging, but I also know this time we are putting in will pay off in the end with a well-adjusted little girl who knows she can always turn to us no matter what. As a child I often longed for someone to hold me close, would lay awake at night wanting to call for my mom or to go to her while not being able to. I would hide around the house hoping for someone to come looking for me, would beg my sister to let me sleep with her in her room. Issues much? Well yeah, but my point is that I don't want Isadora to ever feel that way and I really do believe giving her exactly what she needs and being there for her whenever she needs me will be worth every overworked nipple, rough day, and cold meal. Today being there for her equaled sitting on the couch while she nursed and slept for almost the entire day. Only stopping for small bouts of diaper changing, playing, and laughing until I nearly cried before starting it all over again. Good thing this kid makes for hilarious company since trying to get out of the house with her these days is pretty insane. Each time she awakes she smiles so big and she spends plenty of time each day screeching and babbling while watching how I'll react. So, yeah, some days can do me in a little more than I would like to admit, but I wouldn't give up this time with her for a million bucks. She makes me even happier than I could have ever anticipated and today I recommitted to taking things one day at a time, squeezing out all of the good that I can and powering through the tougher moments, leaving the previous one behind and not worrying ahead to the next one. Sounds like a pretty solid plan to me.